looking back.

 
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ser tillbaka till tre dagar efter hennes födsel.
då var hon gul och ullig (och gullig).
det lär bli en del tillbakablickar i bloggen ett tag, jag har ett par år att komma ikapp. 

looking back to three days after her birth.
then she was yellow and woolly.
there will be some back gazing in the blog for a while, i have some years to catch up.

L O T T E N

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hon kom till oss i mars.

she came to us in march.

two months of albin.

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my brother has stayed with us for almost two months. 
two days ago he went back to his studies in southern sweden.
i will miss him cooking eggs before i wake up,
playing that morning music, 
and those small chats late at night.

littleville.

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två minuter från vår tunnelbanestation ligger en gömd by.
där når vägskyltarna inte högre än till midjan,
och husen är mindre än äppelträden.
när den första riktiga snön kom var det djuren som begav sig hit.
och sen kom någon enstaka skottare och röjde framför dörren sin.
pulkabarnen tog sats uppifrån dansbanan,
skatorna flockades kring glömda sommarfrukter.

there is a hidden village two minutes from our subway station.
there the road signs don't reach higher than to the waist, 
and the houses are smaller than the apple trees.
the animals came here when the first snow fell.
then a solitary shoveler, clearing the path to his front door.
the sledding kids took kit from the dance pavillion,
the magpies flocked around forgotten summer fruits.

for real.

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nu har vi bott här i ett halvt år.
det känns som vårt första riktiga hem.
förut har vi alltid vetat att vi snart skulle vara på väg, nu vet vi inte det.
och nu längtar jag ingen annanstans.
längtar snarare hit alla er som inte är här.

we have lived here for half a year now. 
it feels like our first real home. 
we always knew that our previous homes were temporary, now we don't know that. 
and we have no plans of leaving. 
i rather wish that everyone would come here as well.

home is gone.

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vägen som förut gick hem. nu är hem inte kvar.

this road used to be the road home. but home is not there anymore.

tunnelbana.

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childhood surroundings.

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judarnskogen och judarnsjön. här busade mulle under dagisåren. här åts det mariekex och
här dracks det varm choklad i termos. här letades det grodyngel och salamandrar. här
sprangs det runt sjön på friluftsdagar och här tävlades det på scouternas familjedagar. här
promenerades det runt runt runt när tonårsproblemen skulle stötas och blötas. här sjöngs
"vintern rasat" i majbrasans sken. och här rasade visst vintern även för några veckor sedan.

judarn. the forest and the lake close to where i grew up. we still go here from time to time.

visitors.

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december morning.

my funny valentine.

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ulle. jonas.

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g'day.

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busy days with school deadlines and small train trips through the country. a lot of time

spent by the computer in the apartment, accompanied by small personal things. recently

some distracted characters have been gathering on my table. they come one in one by

mail. now there's nine of them keeping me company. back to work!

waiting room.

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wednesday evenings.

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sisters eating pasta and cookies, watching a silly (but oh so enjoyable) tv show.

sthlm daily.

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two morning views before diving into the subway system.
first it is the street and the sky. then a left turn; the square, the elevator, the water.

ill and local.

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have been more or less ill for weeks. it is not only bad. a good thing is that when i only
have the energy to walk a few blocks, the neighbourhood is interesting enough . another
good thing is the boyfriend leaving gothenburg to accompany these small walks.

all saints day.

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spent at the forest cemetery in stockholm. i heard there were 60 000 people coming

there this first weekend in novemeber. lighting candles by the graves. visiting the

chapels. creeping around in the woods. we were four of them.

chestnut.

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the autumn is not depressing. on days like today.

kth.

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stockholm school of architecture.

ballerina.

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annelie.